my mind....

I just want to talk about my mind today.........

I traveled around the world. There are many countries. But if I want to have friends who are in other countries( I mean except Japan) I have to know the personality of the people.

When I was in America I really really think about what people's mind is. I always think about my friend mind, taste, hobby,etc....... American culture is much different from our culture, so it was so hard for me to understand it.

Japanese are not good at expressing their feeling. So we try to understand our feeling by observing our attitude or face and so on. But in America, if I can't express my mind they think I am not intereste in theire words... So I tried to express my feeling so much. It was very hard for me to do it because I wasn't used to expressing my mind.

Then, I tried to express my mind but it was not enough. American is also shy to contact with foreigner(especially Asian) so even though I tried to express my feeling and talk to them they sometimes escape from me.

When that occured I was always sad but I didn't want to give up. So I try to make some food and call people even if they refuse to come first. I called the people several times.

Moreover, I try to understand individual character. Some of them like baseball teams, other people like to see Origami. But they don't say to me. People don't talk about their mind so I have to know without noticing. besides I give them the things which they like and the attitude express my feeling.

It was so hard for me to do that because even if I do that they don't know my effort. I always think about my friends and I was tireds. I sometimes think "I really care about my friends, but they seems not care about me. It is natural but I am tired.....Is it valuable act for me or not?.........."

Actually when I was in America last year I vomited 4times because of stress......

I was not good at speaking English and I am very small compared with American. I think American like big but I am small so people try to speak big persons. I know they don't ignore me. But some people told me that is American's tendency....

Therefore, I should have broaded mind and be a man. I mean I have to have strength by myself....

Sometimes people think staying aboroad is fun and intersting. But you should know it is so hard to get along with foreingers who have culture which is much different from yours. Sometimes, the people never went to other countries so they don't know how hard it is.

For example

When I was in America, my friends(Japanese) said to me it is hard for him to figure out American's face. So he sometimes ignore his friends becasue he didn't notice. And after that, the American said to me these Japanese don't like her....

Maybe American knows it is hard for them to figure out Asian's face. Chinese or Korean or Japanese. It is same things.

So I tried to remember their face and name. I always check facebook in my room in order to remember their face and name. Once I wacthed facebook for two hours to remember my friends face and name.

It was so hard for me to understand foreinger's mind and make goods friends who really trust me.I mean who will contact to me even though I back to Japan. It is not so hard to make friends who are just acquaintances. Then, sometimes, people failed it and gather people who are from same countries.

I didn't want to do that so I tried to make everyday. I think I did it and make many friends. You should know staying and making friends in foreign countries is so hard.

if you have some idea about this oppinion, please write on the comments. I want to know what my friends think about my mind.